"Decide for truth and everything is yours."
I, like many others, want to have more financial freedom. I want to have passive or nearly passive income to be able to have the freedom and time to do the things that I am convinced that I need to do in this lifetime and to give of my gifts freely to others without constantly worrying about income. A recent opportunity that did give me passive income for some time, has proved to not work out in the long run. When reflecting on this I realised that I did get too attached to this particular source of income. Of course when I opened A Course in Miracles on a seemingly random page a couple of days later I got this message:
"Idols are limits. They are the belief that there are forms that will bring happiness, and that, by limiting, is all attained. It is as if you said, "I have no need of everything. This little thing I want, and it will be as everyhing to me." And this must fail to satisfy, because it is your will that everything be yours. Decide for idols and you ask for loss. Decide for truth and everything is yours." (ACIM Text p. 630)
When I am looking for specific answers for situations in my life I tend to find that I get exactly what I want from the Course or some other source. Bear in mind I often open it up on a seemingly random page nowadays and this time was no exception.
Around the same day I was reading Autobiography of a Yogi by Paramahansa Yogananda where his guru quotes Matthew 6:33 "Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
Let's just say, I got the message quite clearly. To live a satisfying life, physically, materially, mentally and spiritually, it is best to not get attached to specific outcomes or sources of material satisfaction in this case. If I do, I am asking for loss. These are principles that I have heard over and over again from different sources, but nothing teaches us as effectively as personal experience. It is counter-intuitive to some extent. By not controlling or becoming attached, there is a higher chance of receiving exactly what we need and truly want.
On the other hand we often hear in business and self help circles to 'focus' on what you want to manifest. We can do this but if we are not open to the different forms of how it can and will manifest we limit our capability of receiving it. If the one channel that we are focusing and depending on doesn't work out we have to expand and make ourselves receptive to a wider view. "..it is your will that everything be yours" and "seek ye first the kingdom of God,..., and all these things shall be added unto you" means that if we focus on our true will, which is to know that infinate love is the ultimate truth and and that we are that truth just having a 'physical' experience, things will flow more easily and without too much strain. The more this truth sinks in, the more free I am and the less I limit myself, the higher the chance of being able to receive or give everyting needed at any time.
Wolf Moon
Wolf Moon, sister of Kali, bring forth the woman beneath the surfaces of doubt and false perception.
She is the spirit that knows no doubt, fully embodied yet beyond bodily limitations. She is my truth, always with me but obscured by false expectations.
Let her rise and burn through the layers. She is age old and all knowing with the curiosity and eagerness of a child.
She is blazing fire and the freezing winter wind howling through my consciousness, calling me to wake up.
I am not a body. I am free.
I am not in this body. This body is in me, to be of use as my holy altar for a definite amount of time in the midst of eternity. It is a temporary tool, animated by spirit, used for the purpose of altering this physical reality by reaching into it. Reaching down only to lift up. This body is fully me if I let it be, but I am not it.
Mother Moon
Mother Moon
Instill in me your light
Your translucence
Your wisdom and compassion
Goddess of the Sea
Fill me with your depth
Your vastness
Your darkness and power
Let the light and dark of the feminine merge
As the moonlight reflecting in the ocean
Lilith rising
Lilith rises like a Phoenix from the ashes.
She rises not in revenge or bitterness, but in playful redemption. Her wings reaching up and out.
She is there, was there, always will be.
Never left, patiently waiting for us to realise her presence.
She is not here to destroy but to merge the true power of the feminine with the true masculine in all living beings.
She was demonised but never cared much, nor will she care when they try to douse her fire again and again.
Her fire is the eternal life force. Always was, always will be.
Art by Katherine Skaggs
Ask and you will receive, but what do you truly want?
I am a student of the law of attraction as well as A Course in Miracles.
I love observing and playing with the law of attraction and recognising that I really do create my own reality, for better or for worse. It gives a sense of personal power.
A Course in Miracles expands this principle and at the same time simplifies it by saying that we do choose our reality, but there are only two alternatives to choose from: fear or love, love being the only 'real' world and fear being an illusion. Fear puts us in a state of mind where we do not feel enough and need to compensate for it by ego manifestations. Love being the state of mind where we trust in our highest becoming, however that path will unfold, and trust that we will have enough material things to support us along the way.
If you limit yourself to only what your mind can conceive (which is still a lot) you are partially blocking off the possibilities of attracting the highest possible expression of your life experience, your highest possible becoming. Our source (Goddess, God, universe, Spirit, you name it) without exception has a plan that is beyond what our limited perception can begin to imagine and conceive.
I appreciate the nicer material things in life as much as the next person but I don't usually bank my happyness on it. If I ever do, I am in trouble because it will never be enough. We always want to experience more, have more, be more. This is not a bad thing if we can move through these experiences while having an underlying feeling of joy as the basis, not the product, of the experiences. At the same time, when things are not going well we do not identify too much with the adversity. It's not that we should not have these things, but true value should not be applied to it by us. As it reads in A Course in Miracles: "You do not ask too much of life, but far too little. When you let your mind be drawn to bodily concerns, to things you buy, to eminence as valued by the world, you ask for sorrow, not for happiness".
This is not some moralistic sermon about materialism and its traps and how people are lost in consumerism. That is a different, although important, conversation but it can too easily turn into judgment and arguments on how we 'should' live, who acts 'right' and who doesn't. The ego (small separated self) revels in this. We have not come into this world to agree to one way of living and tell each other off when we break the rules. We have come for collective and individual expansion and to live our highest potential. This means vastly different things to different people.
So by all means manifest those material possessions, career and life that you dream of. There is nothing inherently bad about this. After all, if it's attained through questionable means I am convinced the wealth will either not last or it will cause you more problems than joy. Greed is one thing, joyous manifestation is another. The former feels restricting (after the initial rush) and the latter feels expansive. Either way you will get back the type of energy that you put into it within this lifetime. There is no need to wait for a fearful afterlife judgement since I am convinced we come from unconditional love and will return to it, as well as experience it in this life if we choose to.
Remember the only two choices are fear and love, although these can have many expressions. So next time you want to manifest something into your life and you are not sure if it's the right choice, ask yourself if you are doing it out of fear of not being or having enough (restriction), or out of true inspiration and love for life (expansion). The clue is in the feeling.
Note to Self
Rest into nothingness...
Burn pride and insecurity, both, in the fire of truth.
Accept your earthly limitations and your heavenly limitlessness all at once.
Rest into not knowing, letting go...
Tell your small self:
This is not about you. This can't be about you.
Release...
Be comfortable in the perfect non-security of it all.
Give way for the Self, that comes with no security and no insecurity, defenseless, perfect yet holding no standards of perfection.
Give it space and it will expand.
Give it time and it will crush all concepts of time.
Now rise...
Taking responsibility for ourselves
I have just declared to myself to never again take my low energy to interactions with people around me. Let me explain what I mean by this. First of all this is an intention and when I say 'never' I am fully aware that this might be ambitious, but we have to aim high to get somewhere new. So when I am feeling generally off, negative, argumentative, ego tripping, jeaolus, (the list goes on), it is never, and I mean NEVER a good idea to start bringing discussion to others about how we are feeling or what we think we want, unless we are genuinely asking for help with getting out of it.
Now, I am not suggesting that we should suppress it or ignore it. Instead I am suggesting we need to own our negativity. Look at it for a while. Try to be alone at the earliest possible opportunity to reflect, meditate, journal, run, walk, do yoga, anything and everything you need and can do to work through it, transmute it and most importantly release it. As A Course in Miracles suggests 'look at the cross but don't dwell on it'. 'The cross' being our pain (negative emotion), which is nevertheless a part of the human condition.
This taking of responsibility for your state of mind also means making a conscious effort to not react to other people's shit. It's a radical taking of responsibility for our own energy grid and sometimes we need to fake it until it comes naturally. I know, as much as anyone, that in many situations all we want to do is argue back, attack, blame. Don't get me wrong, sometimes the person or people around us might seemingly be in the wrong, but us pointing that out and lowering our energy does not serve anyone. It definitely does not serve yourself.
This is hard but it is the real work, and if we stick to it it's able to deliver us to states of being that we may only dream of. When I say 'low energy' I also mean the ego (small separated self as described in The Course) or the pain body which can be called a number of other things. To be clear, as explained in A Course in Miracles, this is not where we are bad it's where we are wounded. This means that self-compassion is the first and foremost way to approach it, as well as understanding and compassion for others.
Blessed Be.
